Here In The Big Unknown,
After All The Deaths And Departures
Here in the big unknown is a series of paintings that explore my connection to new places by referring to memories that engender feelings of solitude and detachment. Therefore, the overall atmosphere of the paintings creates a sense of duality between reality and fantasy, like scattered images that come to mind when recalling memories. To emphasize the sense of loss and not belonging, there are no specific signs in these paintings to attach these places to our familiar environment. The large scale of the paintings cast a shadow over viewers to invite them to enter unknown places and share what I am experiencing in an unfamiliar city, my sense of detachment and relocation.
The emptiness, vastness, and loneliness of these paintings allude to my lived experience of disconnection and uncertainty. All the elements depict unsettled positions, drowning in deep blue and purple, and the tension of living in between. I aim to show how our emotions shape our memories and experiences to attach us to places. My paintings reflect my personal experiences of uncertainty and disconnection during my one-year stay in Canada.
After all the deaths and departures includes a series of hanging prints of my personal and archival family photographs on translucent fabrics. By presenting my family photographs and archival photos together I am referring to an experience of relocation that is continuous over time from generation to generation. This hybrid project refers to the collective memory of generations of Iranians who take memories of their past to new alienated environments and experience living in between to share the feeling of detachment and yearning for lost people and places. I detached the people pictured in the photos and print only parts of their bodies onto translucent fabric. By hanging the prints within the exhibition space, I bring these individuals into the new place, offering viewers an opportunity to experience the place through these metaphorical memories.
The juxtaposition of these projects is a way to walk the path between past and present, personal memories and collective memories, people, and places, to make a bridge between two different worlds that are connected and present in the experience of every immigrant.